MAINEVENT
05-11-2006, 12:24 PM
Me and want to assume i'm an asshole without even knowing anything about me here is my recent blog about a fathers love... its long i know....
PS Dont get me wrong if i dont like you... your dam right i'm an asshole...
OK so after a few cocktails and a very hard day for me i am gonna write this shit out... If your a father you can relate if not you can still relate if your father was involved in your life....
So growing up my Dad was alway's there for me through good times and bad, He would take time out from his busy day to watch me during my baseball games and football games, Always gave me the support i needed... As i got older my ignorance grew out of what was really true, I took the road through a worng path in life, @ 13yo I was arrested for driving with out a license and assault, I made the mistake of listening to my "Friends" and took my old mans truck and went bombing people with eggs on holloween, I never touched an egg all i did was drive, The guys that were with me thought it would be funny to throw an egg at a driving care and nailed the guy in the face, he chased us for some time and never cought us... After dropping off all my friends off i proceeded home and got lit up by the cops, went straight downhill from there, sitting on the curb in cuffs for driving witout a license and assault (an egg that one of the guys threw) my dad looked at me in dissapointment never anger... So take a guess who bailed me out of jail??? Not my "Friends" but my Dad... After a serious ass whoop'n and a talkin too, He told me that my ass whoopn was for my own good and i should think next time i do something stupid... 2 years later once again i found another bad group of friends and was Expelled out of 5 high schools, some for fighting others for possesion of narcotics, my dad once again was the only when there for me when i would get cought or expelled taking time off of work and having a real heart to heart talk with me explaining once agian the different roads in life i have to see before i make the wrong choice to the wrong path in life, offereing me his own experience and bad choices he made in his life and asking me to feed off of that and not make them myself... Upto this day my dad has been there for me from the day i got married, the day my wonderful kids were born, and the sad day that i moved out of my Home when i got divorced he has helped me move every time and gone out of his way and has gone farther than i have ever expected out of anyone in my life to help me out... Now think of this I put this man through hell and back from having his truck impounded for 30 days, bailing his own son out of jail, being sued by another family for their sons facial reconstrunctive surgery cost, to down right me fighting with him... and yet he still takes the time out of his day's from time to time ask me how i am doing in my life... Why am i writing this you must be thinking well as some of you know i am moving to Chino and it is a bitter sweet for me I Have been wanting to move back out that way for some time unfortunately my ex-wife will no longer be moving also and i wont see my kids everyday as i do now... My kids were never left behind during my time in marriage, rarely here and there my parents would watch them and have always been in the presents or hands of a family member... Well i move this weekend and today i got to meet my kids new Nanny. :-( I about lost it... in fear for my kids and of what might be going through there heads when they are left alone with this perfect stranger... When our kids were born i opted to have my ex-wife stay at home for the reason that i didn't want my kids to take there first step, words, etc... for a perfect stranger at a day care... and now i feel i have let them down daddy is moving away and will only see them on the weekends, I just hope my kids will understand why i had to make this move... and I hope my kids think of me as i think of my dad, I would do anythng for them and love them no matter what happens or where we are at, they can count on me just like i did my dad, I am not sure sometimes if this move is what is really good for all of us but i am looking out a little to the future and to better there lives I am making this move in my life, It just sux that now because of a marriage that couldn't work my kids have to pay the price of something that as parents we had decided not to ever let happen... I just hope and pray that this nanny takes great care of my babies when she is with them, we went through extensive resaerch and interviewed many nanny's and the last descision of who we picked was not left upto me, my ex made the final descsion and as a mother i trust her but you bet your ass nanny cams will be in full affect through out the house... Moral of my story i guess is a father love is un-conditional wether its good times bad times or hard times as a father you just have to believe everything turns out for the best for your kids and do everything in you power to make things right i couldn't make my marriage work out so i must make this as comfortable as i possibly can for my kids... My Dad is My Best Friend and i just wish i could be half the father my dad is for me but to my kids....
PS Dont get me wrong if i dont like you... your dam right i'm an asshole...
OK so after a few cocktails and a very hard day for me i am gonna write this shit out... If your a father you can relate if not you can still relate if your father was involved in your life....
So growing up my Dad was alway's there for me through good times and bad, He would take time out from his busy day to watch me during my baseball games and football games, Always gave me the support i needed... As i got older my ignorance grew out of what was really true, I took the road through a worng path in life, @ 13yo I was arrested for driving with out a license and assault, I made the mistake of listening to my "Friends" and took my old mans truck and went bombing people with eggs on holloween, I never touched an egg all i did was drive, The guys that were with me thought it would be funny to throw an egg at a driving care and nailed the guy in the face, he chased us for some time and never cought us... After dropping off all my friends off i proceeded home and got lit up by the cops, went straight downhill from there, sitting on the curb in cuffs for driving witout a license and assault (an egg that one of the guys threw) my dad looked at me in dissapointment never anger... So take a guess who bailed me out of jail??? Not my "Friends" but my Dad... After a serious ass whoop'n and a talkin too, He told me that my ass whoopn was for my own good and i should think next time i do something stupid... 2 years later once again i found another bad group of friends and was Expelled out of 5 high schools, some for fighting others for possesion of narcotics, my dad once again was the only when there for me when i would get cought or expelled taking time off of work and having a real heart to heart talk with me explaining once agian the different roads in life i have to see before i make the wrong choice to the wrong path in life, offereing me his own experience and bad choices he made in his life and asking me to feed off of that and not make them myself... Upto this day my dad has been there for me from the day i got married, the day my wonderful kids were born, and the sad day that i moved out of my Home when i got divorced he has helped me move every time and gone out of his way and has gone farther than i have ever expected out of anyone in my life to help me out... Now think of this I put this man through hell and back from having his truck impounded for 30 days, bailing his own son out of jail, being sued by another family for their sons facial reconstrunctive surgery cost, to down right me fighting with him... and yet he still takes the time out of his day's from time to time ask me how i am doing in my life... Why am i writing this you must be thinking well as some of you know i am moving to Chino and it is a bitter sweet for me I Have been wanting to move back out that way for some time unfortunately my ex-wife will no longer be moving also and i wont see my kids everyday as i do now... My kids were never left behind during my time in marriage, rarely here and there my parents would watch them and have always been in the presents or hands of a family member... Well i move this weekend and today i got to meet my kids new Nanny. :-( I about lost it... in fear for my kids and of what might be going through there heads when they are left alone with this perfect stranger... When our kids were born i opted to have my ex-wife stay at home for the reason that i didn't want my kids to take there first step, words, etc... for a perfect stranger at a day care... and now i feel i have let them down daddy is moving away and will only see them on the weekends, I just hope my kids will understand why i had to make this move... and I hope my kids think of me as i think of my dad, I would do anythng for them and love them no matter what happens or where we are at, they can count on me just like i did my dad, I am not sure sometimes if this move is what is really good for all of us but i am looking out a little to the future and to better there lives I am making this move in my life, It just sux that now because of a marriage that couldn't work my kids have to pay the price of something that as parents we had decided not to ever let happen... I just hope and pray that this nanny takes great care of my babies when she is with them, we went through extensive resaerch and interviewed many nanny's and the last descision of who we picked was not left upto me, my ex made the final descsion and as a mother i trust her but you bet your ass nanny cams will be in full affect through out the house... Moral of my story i guess is a father love is un-conditional wether its good times bad times or hard times as a father you just have to believe everything turns out for the best for your kids and do everything in you power to make things right i couldn't make my marriage work out so i must make this as comfortable as i possibly can for my kids... My Dad is My Best Friend and i just wish i could be half the father my dad is for me but to my kids....